Butterflies and Bryan

So the more I thot about this title, the sappyer it sounded. Let me explain: These two words have nothing to do with each other (to throw in alittle sap, yes, I do still get butterflies when he touches me, kisses me, and when he gives me that look), it is only that I have been wanting to do a blog about these two subjests but neither is long enough to write a whole blog about, so I'm combining them. They are just two random thots that jump into my head throughout a week.

Butterflies: Growing up I lived in Ecuador so it was only every 4 years or so that I would see my family in the USA. When ever we would go visit my Mom's Mom, Gramie Spence, you could tell that she loved butterflies and she collected them. Now as a teenager, looking at her house I remember thinking, "Gramie has WAY to many butterflies and her house looks tacky, old fashion, and too busy with all the butterflies". Her favorite color was blue too. So there were many rooms filled with blue and butterflies. She past away the summer before I got married. My programs for our wedding had a butterfly and a poem written by her in honor of her. I pulled out my programs as I am in a few weddings this year and was trying to help remember some things. It got me starting to thinking alot about my Gramie, the things I can remember (I don't feel like I knew her as well as alot of my cousins who lived close to her) but I have alot of memories, and the things I use to think about her house and decorations don't seem so tacky, old fashion, and busy anymore. Instead they are cherished, comforting, and a taste I'm starting to like. Now, in thinking about my house and decorations, am I going to go crazy with butterflies and blue, NO!!!! But am I really stating to like butterflies, yes. There are some patterns of butterflies that are WAY too much and busy, but do I want touches of butterflies here and there, yes!! The one on my program I think is my favorite kind, cuz there are SSOOOOOO many kinds!! In looking them up and finding things out about the butterfly, they are a really cool insect, each one being unique in their own way, kind of like humans. I think about you often, Gramie, your kind spirit, your giving heart, and the way you kept your house and home, you held it together!!! As I begin to add butterflies to my home, I will think of you! Butterfly Kisses!!


This one is similar to the one on my program

That is SO cool



Each one is so unique!!

Way too busy of a pattern!! Avoiding this type

Love it!!

One of my favorite pictures of us

Bryan: So all of you who have cared to keep up with our life, you know that we are going thru quite the transition!! Job, house, and church family. Those are really big things and it creates LOTS of tension, or tense conversations as we try to figure things out and work thru them. Without going into much detail about our marriage :-) let me just tell you what an amazing husband I have. (If you would rather not listen or care to read about what I think about my husband, now would be the time to click off :-)) These big transitions in our life take a huge toll and put a lot of stress onto the leader of the home. With Bryan starting his new job/business working for himself, he has to make sure he has enough work to provide for his family. Anyone who has gone thru that knows its alot of late nights, long weekends, and not alot of family time. Then he has to find us a house that we can afford to rent on a salary that is very unpredictable. Then find a church family we can serve under, support, going in same direction and fit with our philosophy/way of thinking. ( I know that there is no church that will fit us perfectly or a church that is perfect for that matter, I'm just trying to get a point across) That all said, my husband is handling everything beautifully!! Are we with out conflict, no! Am I happy with him and our situation all the time, no!! In fact, that is a huge struggle of mine, but he tries to keep me happy :-) He leads us all SO well!! Thru all of this, I have seen him grow spiritually, in wisdom, grace, and seeking to know and understand  the ways of God and the Bible. When I married him 5 1/2 years ago, I knew he was a great leader, his love for God, and desire to serve Him, but I have watched that grow to a much deeper level thru all this. It has helped and made me love him that much more!! He has an understanding of spiritual matters that baffles me! He helps me see my stupidly with Grace, my selfish ways and thinking. He encourages me to pursue  God and know my Bible. I love him more everytime we argue over our next decitions. Thank you, Bryan, for being sensitive to God's leading, for leading our family, and for making me a better person!! You are an amazing Dad and Husband! I love you!! See you when you get home!!

Dating in college(I like to pull out old pictures of us)

At the Creation Museum